The dark night of the soul is awakening you. What is the feeling you are feeling? Find the deep rooted question, to receive the deep rooted answer. You have just one feeling to heal, but its clouded with many words. How great would it feel to be healed.
The soul wants you to go back to being a child, here is where your pain has been sitting, this is why the souls journey is a backward journey. Once you go back and heal, you can then start to walk forwards.