Sorded Past
To light upon a reflection
of a dear friend’s sordid past,
And hold for them an image
of a slightly brighter cast.
 
~ cb 2010 ~
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“Many Time’s”

Many time’s, I placated myself,
From a heart that wants to live.
Many time’s, I turned away,
Myself, I wouldn’t forgive.

Many time’s, I’ve played it safe,
Hiding from the light.
Many time’s, I refused to listen,
To see with inner sight.

Many time’s, I chose fear,
Suffering became my norm.
Many times, the unconsciousness,
Produced a violent storm.

Many time’s, I cried alone,
Isolated in my sorrow.
Many time’s, I have prayed,
To have no more tomorrow.

Many time’s, I’ve gotten up,
Brushed off the guilt and shame.
Many time’s, I’ve broken my heart,
“ I Am” is still my name.
Craig A. Hadan
1-5-2016

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Quiet, oh please still my mind,
Quiet, join and bring the stillness,
Quiet, let me find peace in you,
In me,
Quiet
~cb~
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“We work on ourselves in order to help others,
but we also help others to work on ourselves.”
– Pema Chodron –
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“Oh the comfort, the inexplicable comfort of feeling safe with a person-having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but pouring them all out, just as they are, chaff and grain together; certain that a faithful hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping and then with a breath of kindness blow the rest away.”
Dina Craik
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Excerpt from the book: “The Infinite Plan”
by Isabel Allende

“I was not deceived by my supposed triumphs; the truth is that all my life I had been pursued by a vague sensation of failure. It took me an eternity, nevertheless, to learn that the more I accumulated, the more vulnerable I was, because I live in a world where the opposite message is drummed into us. Tremendous lucidity is required… not to fall into that trap. I did not have it, and I had to sink to the very bottom to obtain it. At the moment my world caved in on me, when I had nothing left, I discovered I didn’t feel depressed, I felt free. I realized that the most important thing was not, as I had imagined, to survive or be successful; the most important thing was the search for my soul, which I had left behind in the quicksand of my childhood. When I found it, I learned that the power I had wasted such desperate energy to gain had always been inside me. I was reconciled with myself, I accepted myself with a touch of kindness, and then, and only then, was rewarded with my first glimpse of peace. I think that was the precise instant I became aware of who I truly am, and at last felt in control of my destiny.”

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William Hutchinson Murray (1913-1996)

“Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back. Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one’s favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way. Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now.”

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“I surrender to my journey
My way no lesser path
A greater truth I find within
In God, there is no wrath.”
~clay boykin 2010~

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Woods
“A quiet pleasure – to hang back a moment in the wood
and watch my friends walk into the morning light…”
~clay boykin 2001~
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“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”